Madeleine L’Engle has passed on. Although really the most appropriate thing to say would be "Congrats!", I do find my eyes getting a bit moist thinking about it. Why? Well, that’s a long story, but I’ve got plenty of time.
Let’s wrinkle back in time to about nine years ago. I was still a new convert […]

Deeksha, on the web is turning into exactly what is was meant not to be.  It is basically a form of shaktipat, to move you beyond your mind and allow you to experience a greater truth of what is.

Yet, it seems everyone on the web is trading insults, defending and offending, being holier than though or cynical and negative about deeksha.  For some people, deeksha changes their lives, for others, it does nothing.  But more so, everyone has an opinion about it and this has taken away the truth of what it is all about.  It is about getting you beyond your opinions, beyond your mind to experience your true nature.

And if you experience that, you won’t have an opinion any longer.

For any of you that are confused and are looking for some personal experience with deeksha, here I go.

 Most of you know that I create music that washes you in enlightened energetic, helping you to move quickly into high states of meditation.  I am always doing more and more research in how to make this sound technology more powerful, more effective, so eventually, you can put on the CD and dissappear into oneness and be done with all of it!

Well I was doing research and came upon this man named Sri Kalki.  There was a free video of him and his wife to download so I downloaded it.  In watching the video I was amazed.  I had never experienced someone with such a powerful enlightened energetic from a video.  I kept playing the video over and over and was dumfounded. 

I read more, heard about this thing called deeksha which I had no belief in whatsoever.  But still, this guy on the video talking was blowing me away energetically.  So I searched around and found someone about an hour away from me that gave deeksha.  I wrote them and asked if I could have a private one, as I had no interest in doing a workshop, I just wanted to experience this deeksha thing.  They agreed to give me one.

It was a nice suburbian couple sitting there in room in their house.  They spoke a lot of stuff which I ignored for the most part, as I was more amazed at the enlightened presence in this room.

I don’t care about words, or teachings, I go by energetic.  And sitting in this room with this couple, there was quite a presence there.  Whether it came from them or the room I do not know.

They made me do these meditations, which were more exercises than meditations, but if that was what I had to do to find out what this deeksha was, I was happy to do it.

When they finally got to the deeksha part, I experienced an intense kriya just before.  My body went into convulsions and weird sounds were coming out of my throat mouth.  After about 10 minutes, they subsided.

They put their hands on my head one at a time.  And it did not feel like they gave me something like shaktipat, but rather, took a heaviness away off the top of my head.  And I was instantly in a sublime state of bliss, I felt weightless, full of love.

I had been with many enlightened masters, had attained high states of awareness, realized the self, yet, these 2 people could do wonders just putting their hands on my head.

I had another a few days later.  And then had a phone deeksha with Raniji in the US.  I wrote to her afterwards

“Thank you so much for the incredible Phone Diksha.    I love you with all my heart. I never knew there could be so much divine love over a phone call. Jane and Theo from New Zealand asked me to tell them how the phone Diksha was.  Here is the best I could say:

This has been one of the most blissful days in my entire life.  But even
that does not say anything.  You asked if I would email you how the
phone diksha was.  The best description I could give is to cry and smile and
tell you how much I love you.  Even that does not do it but you know it
anyway, what I cannot say, what is always said and I am saying now.”

It was then I signed up to go to the 21 day course.

The first day of the course, we walked in to the hall and they splashed blessed water on my head and I was instantly crying because I was overflowing in love.  Yet I had no idea why.

Most of the 21 day course, I didn’t enjoy myself.   I just wanted to go home.   I found myself annoyed with everyone around me, I missed my dog.  Yet there were certain things that happened that were quite profound, which I won’t go into here.

I will say when I had darshan with Amma, I have never experienced sitting with someone with such presence.  It was as though I was sitting with God.  And I have sat with many fully enlightened masters, but this was something completely different.  I cannot begin to describe the experience.

 It wasn’t really until about a month after I returned that I really noticed the impact the 21 day course had.  Experiencing visions of the divine mother, experiencing the presence of the divine mother that would make me cry and laugh, energy so strong I couldn’t stand up.  And then intense catharsis, purification.  Most of the time just sitting and the energy blowing through me with such force I could not say anything or do anything.

 The 10 day course was the opposite of the 21 day course.  I went into extraordinary states which you can read about here. www.bliss-music.com/cosmic-consciousness.htm

I love Amma and Bhagavan in a way that I cannot make someone else understand.  It is not an egotistical love, it is not their bodies, not their teachings, nor what they do, nor their organization that I love.  It is the essence of what they are and what I am.  This essence is here all of the time.   It is this essence that I call Amma and Bhagavan or any other name that is what I love.  It consumes me, it purifies me, it takes care of me.  It is this essence that I serve, that I live for, it is that which I am in truth.  It is that which destroys the untruth, that breaks down the illusion of separateness in every moment .  It burns away hate and fear so that the essence as love and peace remains. 

It has made me a better person to others, more loving and decent.  At the same time, I dissappear more and more into this essence.  It is challenging and blissful and it leaves me without anything to define or judge.  Just immersion and decency and loving.

 Such essence has no politics, no beliefs, no members, no teachings.  It cannot be argued about or judged.  It is beyond all such things.  It is beyond any sense of “I.”  I do not consider myself part of the Deeksha organization nor against their organization.  I do not consider myself a deeksha giver nor not a deeksha giver.  I give deeksha to those that want it.  Not by doing but it happens.

I have no interest in recommending you do the 21 day course or not.  For everything said about all of it is all opinion, useless opinion.  Whether you believe it is a scam or it is the second coming, it is a belief.   Whether you want to save the world or damn it in cynisism it is all nonsense.   I do not believe that deeksha will save the world nor do I disbelieve it.  It is a nice goal, a nice intention and I hope they succeed. 

 It is the essence that everyone misses in their hatred or self righteousness.  It is the essence you miss by having an opinion, by taking a side.  It is the essence you miss by trying to create it to be an organization or a cult.  None of it is true.  There is no organization, there is no Amma and Bhagavan separate from you.  If you go to the 21 day course, that happens.   It is not about getting anything, it is about it being part of your journey.

The most I can tell you is I am happy I did the 21 day course and the 10 day course.   The Calling CDs are a part of a result of this new power and they are already taking hundreds of people into deeper states of consciousness.  You can check out this link for more info  www.bliss-music.com/thecalling.htm

But what the 21 day course did and the 10 day course did was take away more of what was not real.   Most of the people that say “I am already enlightened, I cannot go any deeper, there is nowhere to go” are stuck in their concept about enlightenment, stuck in their roles as being a teacher, as being enlightened.  I know I was.

In my experience, there is always more purification.  Someone once sent me a list of definitions about enlightenment.  There was one from a zen master that stated enlightenment is when there is a permanant connection to God.  And in that connection there is forever a constant purification, a constant flow of the divine destroying any sense of individual existance so all that remains is God. 

The moment you think you know something, figured it out, discovered the truth, have something to agree or disagree, know you are stuck in the mind. 

So many opinions and judgments, arguments.  All of them distracting you from this moment, distracting you from what deeksha can do, and that is remove the false and reveal the truth of what you are. 

Amma and Bhagavan are you.  You are Amma and Bhagavan.  You judge them because you judge yourself.  It is all one.  The sooner you give up the idea that opinion matters, the sooner you will find joy.